Pure Hatred

Johnny Damon, YOU ARE DEAD TO ME!

By Popular Demand

I guess I will answer all* of my adoring fans … If it isn’t apparent by my “tone,” my Christmas plans have changed since my last entry. Originally, there was a better than average chance that I would be stranded in Santa Monica for the holidays, left to celebrate alone and most likely hungry… but no longer. After finding a loophole in my company’s vacation schedule, I managed to get off of work on the 27th and 28th. Because of this, I will now be going home to Baltimore from the 24th to the 28th. If you only knew how excited I am to get out of LA for a long weekend and surround myself with 100% real people again. That’s the one thing I can always count on family for: being honest and being genuine. It’s going to be so refreshing. I guess its safe to say that LA is starting to wear on me… faster than I ever expected or wanted. Regardless, it will be great to go home for a few days…

*by all, I mean the one anonymous comment from my last entry…

Forsaking Destiny

99 times out of 100, if you were to ask me if there is such a thing as free will, I would reply emphatically no. In my opinion, everything happens for a specific reason and at a specific time. The true mystery in life is to figure out what that reason is, to pull the correct lesson out of the occurrence and move on to the next predestined event. But lately, this foundation of my view on life has been crumbling, which can only lead to one thing… and I desperately don’t want to go through that again.

What, you may be wondering, could cause my beliefs to tremble? If you know me, you already know there is only one answer to that question: females or, more specifically, two females, who, as usual, shall remain nameless. The first came into my life as quickly as she has seemed to leave it. What could possibly be the point of such a short, and what I perceived to be, intense encounter. This was the person who I felt could change it all, the person who would change me. The most painful part is that she feigned feeling the same way about me. Why would anyone purposefully destroy someone emotionally? Actually, scratch that, I don’t want to know the answer… in fact, I don’t want to think about this anymore, its getting me all fired up… on to the next issue, which deals more with timing and proximity. Actually, that will have to wait for another day… I don’t feel emotionally capable of writing this right now…

Yes, I know this blog entry went nowhere, but so what, it's my blog and i'll do what i want!

If you want another good story that sums up my life right about now, ask me my Christmas plans…