Forsaking Destiny

99 times out of 100, if you were to ask me if there is such a thing as free will, I would reply emphatically no. In my opinion, everything happens for a specific reason and at a specific time. The true mystery in life is to figure out what that reason is, to pull the correct lesson out of the occurrence and move on to the next predestined event. But lately, this foundation of my view on life has been crumbling, which can only lead to one thing… and I desperately don’t want to go through that again.

What, you may be wondering, could cause my beliefs to tremble? If you know me, you already know there is only one answer to that question: females or, more specifically, two females, who, as usual, shall remain nameless. The first came into my life as quickly as she has seemed to leave it. What could possibly be the point of such a short, and what I perceived to be, intense encounter. This was the person who I felt could change it all, the person who would change me. The most painful part is that she feigned feeling the same way about me. Why would anyone purposefully destroy someone emotionally? Actually, scratch that, I don’t want to know the answer… in fact, I don’t want to think about this anymore, its getting me all fired up… on to the next issue, which deals more with timing and proximity. Actually, that will have to wait for another day… I don’t feel emotionally capable of writing this right now…

Yes, I know this blog entry went nowhere, but so what, it's my blog and i'll do what i want!

If you want another good story that sums up my life right about now, ask me my Christmas plans…